i sometimes wonder too. is it you? or is it me?
i've always believed it's me. cos i never do things right.

i've plenty of draft messages in my phone.
i've got so many things to tell you.
but i dont have the courage to press the 'send' button.

haha, maybe im just not worth cherishing.
i was a bad friend who neglected you, wasnt i?

it's not that i never knew.
i always knew. just that.. i doubt it sometimes.
it feels fake when you treat me so good now.
cos i never knew you were this caring before.
maybe you've changed over the month.
or maybe i became more sensetive.

i dont know.
it's like you're a magnet, attracting every single thing.
while im just a useless piece of metal clip, left there,
because you're fully covered with other metal clips already.
im nothing to you. but i find it reasonable.

well, i admit im studying like crazy to numb the pain,
i admit i've made alot of friends to forget you.
& i can see you're having a good life with you-know-who.
haha. at least i know you're happier like this. [:

all the best, Sai Papae! <3

im sorry. but i just cant forget the pain.
maybe we could just stay as NuEr & Papa relationship yeah?
we can still be friends. i hope.